It is time for another books review. this week I have finally read a book that I have been wanting to read literally since the day that I heard about it. and that book is History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera. Let’s do this!
By the time that I was 80 pages into this book it had already made me cry…twice…while on a crowded train. I think that can give you a good idea of this book. It was so emotional and hard hitting but also so sweet. I loved this book, even if it did reduce me to tears more than once.
I knew that this book was going to be emotional and hard hitting but I honestly wasn’t expecting it to hit me like it did. This story is just so heart breaking but also heart-warming at the same time. One moment I was smiling the next I was sobbing. It has been quite a while since a book took me on this much of an emotional rollercoaster. I didn’t know what I would be feeling page to page. I honestly cannot remember the last book that made me feel this much. I can’t even remember the last book that made my literally sob on a train.
I think part of the reason why I felt so much for this book was because of the way in which it is told. It jumps around a lot. Half of what you are reading is present day but the other half is all history. While watching Griffin try and deal with his grief, you are also watching how he fell in love with Theo and their relationship. You get to see everything and that really helps you to feel what Griffin is feeling. You can feel how much he loved Theo, you can feel how much he is hurting. You can just feel it all.
This story was just so brilliantly done. It was such a brilliant representation of grief. I find that a lot of YA books that deal with the topic of loss all seem to have one break through moment that suddenly makes the pain go away and never return, and that is, frankly, bullshit. Losing someone that you love really fucking hurts and it hurts for such a very long time. There is no moment that suddenly fixes everything. Grief is a slow processes and it takes a lot of time to heal. And this book actually showed that. it showed how grief doesn’t just disappear overnight. It showed how different people grieve differently and how something that might help one person deal with the pain is complete torture to someone else. I think Silvera did a fantastic job at portraying grief and guilt surrounding a death and moving on after it.
I also really liked the OCD, compulsions side of the story. I had no idea that this was a part of this book but I am so glad that it was. It really worked with the story. and helped to bring Griffin to life. As someone who does not have OCD I can’t say if it was an accurate representation of the condition, but to me, it felt like it was. I could almost feel Griffins anxiety when things didn’t conform to his compulsions. As someone with anxiety I could 100% relate to all of Griffin’s coping mechanisms, such as his palm scratching and tugging his ear. So, at the very least, the anxiety side of his OCD felt spot on to me. I also really loved the fact that you can see him starting to heal a bit towards the end and taking back control. Especially after having watched everything get worse and worse for him throughout the book.
All in all, this is an incredible book that you should definitely read. You will cry so much while reading it but you will also smile. A lot. This is just such a beautiful story about love and loss and moving on. I am so glad that I finally picked it up.
4.5 out of 5
And there we have it. those where my thoughts on History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera. Have you read this book? What did you think about it? I hope that you have enjoyed todays post and I will see you all again very soon.